20090519

Andre...Becoming a douche?

I've been in "a relationship" with the DJ chick for a little over a month now and things are getting really wierd. It's been sugar and shit, but for the most part sugar. I kinda feel like I fucked up by telling her about my copious amounts of 'jumping up and down' in VA, because that combined with my wondering eye, lurstful heart equals the third degree about all sorts of shit.
But anyways I mean she's really about making things work and 'being good' and I know if I was a different type of dude this really could go far... BUT I'm always feeling like
"I could do better..right?"

Which is terrible, because I know how hard it is to find a chick who's attractive and...
+ has no kids
+ isn't bitter as fuck/jaded/guarded like a mufucka from being fucked over many a time
+has a job that allows her to enjoy spontaneous activities cause I'm a outgoing dude
+has a car
+has a sense of humor/adventure
+has hobbies
+a sense of style
+/- has her own place
I mean it's like girls like that only exist in the blogsphere... and I've found one but like I told my dude Nick when he asked about her...
"She's the type of girl you cheat on cause you just want... something different."

He laughed like I was joking but I was dead ass which is a douche thing to say but it's true. I know it's selfish as hell/not fair to her to be 'one foot in, one foot out' of the relationship when she's all in but it's like that sometimes.

I recently met a very pretty girl from Trinidad who's got a body like a shotgun, blue 'queen of the dancehall' highlights in her hair and a son. She's cooler than a box fan when I call her and txt her and make plans to plan...

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

don't do it don't do it ...lol...decide whether you want to be "in" or "out"of the relationship..cause honestly I don't think she would be down for an open relationship or would she??....

Video Vix[o]n said...

honestly man, i wouldn't say i'm in the same boat, but temptation can be a bitch...

this girl you have seems set. try hard not to let her go. i'm all down for variety, but when you have a good thing going, make it work... but you don't need me to tell you that man.

my girl told me that the three things girls want are food, money and good dudes. she has the money and could get food, now all she needs is you.

good luck with your situation man.

hb said...

lol @ vixon, cos i sure want food... and $$$ and a good guy.

seriously... are you every going to want to settle down? you always say, oh i would like a relationship BUT i just so this other chick and she's bad....
when was the last time you were in a relationship?

PhlyyGirl said...

Damn...Hb just called you out...thing is I was wondering the exact same thing?

Are you really running from her or just the whole relationship idea in general???

hb said...

for some reason i dont type the right words but.. i met "saw" not "so". "saw this other chick..." yeah.

Andre said...

@anon
I wanna be in but you know.... And an open relationship is out of the question...

@vv
It's working and I really can't complain too much about it, but that variety is what I'm miasin out on man. It's like the bird in the hand isn't looking as good a it used to...

@hb
The grass is always greener it seems like and I do want one and I thought this chick would be what I was looking for but my feelings have changed and I mean I still like spending time with her cause she is super cool but I just know that she's not it for me. So that there is the prob because I can't have it both at can I?
The last relationship I was in was about from late jan to march but that really doesn't count becase it really doesn't count...
@phlyy
I'm not running from her or a relationship, it's just what I thought I wanted from her I don't, and that's sounds assholish but it's how I feel. And I feel like I'm in to deep because we've got tickets to see ti, pastor troy and dane cook and I know prolonging the shot isn't any better I need to man up and tell her how I feel and she can only respect it or check it right?

K. Denise said...

So. I'm one of them gaurded chicks. This I know and have accepted lol. BUT we need to conversate. No bullshit.

eizzy.k said...

if u not that into her then dont...dont take her for a ride and end up doing something stupid, cuz it sounds like u gonna end up doing something stupid...

tho she cute. and seems tight AND has all that u were looking for...and u proberbly gonna regret leting her go...but sometimes we have to learn things the hard way...

Demiera said...

CLEARLY I've been out the blog game waaaayyy too long...I had no idea about said exclusivity!

That being said...You want a relationship but you want to deal with other people at the same time. It appears this girl isn't the girl for that. She may be a good girl in general but being a good girl in general doesn't make her the right girl for you.

I'm all down for making things work, though..and she seems like a good catch. Whatever you do Dre just don't hurt her...this is that point where you gotta decide whether relationship security or the "thrill of the chase" is more important...

Good luck...!

Nana said...

Ooo If she's not the one or you not ready for a relationship.

JUMP rite now

before you make a wolverine outta that girl. Then I have to deal with they atitudes during customer service time. You can't have it both ways. Get the nice relationship AND the side girls that doesn't sit well with anyone. I'm sure if you were dedicated then you find out her ass was cheating on you it wouldn't be cute.
So tread lite and I hope you have an good solution to your problem.
I know what you mean about cheat just to cheat. Sometimes they missing that IT factor.

....Well you can tell her. Maybe she'll switch it up for you

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