20090112

Saw Red


I can't really imagine how it must feel to be heartbroken/dogged/played by someone I really cared about. I mean my friends say I'm a sucker for love/a woman is gonna be my downfall but whatev.... I listen to "My foolish heart"-Jazmine S. and "Doin' Time"-Sublime sing about it and I'm just like damn....

I'm 23 years old and I can say I've never been in love, I've been in like a few times and the last time it left me listening to "Just Friends" Amy Winehouse on repeat and feeling like shit for a spell. So When I listen to "Kiss me on my neck" Erykah B., I'm like that's all I want. I mean I'm tired of telling girls what they wanna hear and having them feel "some kind of way about me" when I know damn well I can't reciprocate. I can wear a mask but that shits not real at all. I think I just like the feeling of being around a girl who likes me but that feeling only lasts so long. My bro used to tell me fucking with all sorts of girls gets boring after awhile...It does and it doesn't. I want one girl to hold me down but at the same time variety is nice too...

11 comments:

$oulCHK said...

*long sigh


likewise. female version, that is.

Lina said...

aw shit son...I can dig it. I think this is the year that everyone is feeling like they just want that one...the multitude aint necessary no more. So here's hoping you get somebody to walk up behind you and kiss you on your neck...I know, cheesy than a mug, but it works. and fyi, I love that song.

Jaded said...

You cant have both. A variety and a that one girl to hold you down. You can try, and you'll fail.

Being in love...well.

The thing is, the more you *try* and find it. The more elusive it seems. Seriously. And when I say find I mean her. Serendipity I guess.

For now though, just keep doing you and don't tell her your looking. And when I say her I mean love.

ps. should I feel sad/slighted/ peeved/dissed cuz you took me off your blogroll. Let me know. Thanks.

A.M. said...

first off tha pic almost made me puke...gross.

& does it sound like someone is growing up? I think it's great that you're having a different point of view.

Don't know why you guys do that. It's not good to "G" someone, make them think you really want them, and then leave them hurting.

Andre said...

@Linas
The more and more I listen to that song (only have a 1gb card in my sidekick) the less and less cheesy it sounds...

@Jdid
I know right! I keep telling people to wait and see, if it's meant to be and stuff like that, But I want it right now!

For now though, just keep doing you and don't tell her your looking. And when I say her I mean love.

best advice ever.

p.s. none of the above

@pm
DONT YOU DARE ACCUSE ME OF GROWING UP! LOL

The POV is I guess I want more but I'm not gonna be the one to like initiate the wanting moreness you know?

and I don't want to hurt/G any girl. I mean I consider myself a nice guy and if I know a girl doesn't want a dude to just be like "I just wanna fuck" I can't just come out and say it can I? But by doing that I do exactly what you're talking about....It's such a viscious cycle.

hb said...

this is why dudes can't keep one person around, you always want more, you always want a change, its never enough.

being in love is so amazing. it's like.... its like being high where you're calm and times feels like its moving slow but its isn't. you lose your high. when your heart is broken... its literally the worst emotional pain you can go through. like.. it really affected me that bad that it started to make me hurt physically. (which is why i will never let another relationship affect me that much. but you've seen the entries i write, same shit over about love)

are you one of those guys that found a girl that was everything you've been looking for but she didn't like you back? cos i have a close friend that did, and he couldn't be with her and so he has this whole attitude that's "i'm gettin mine regardless" so.. yea... hoeing around. he kinda stopped now because i think it started eating away at him... idk

Dallas Black said...

At 23, whatever you feel....is right.

hehe

just saying....play on iceberg!

Where dat light skin short chick go? Is she still on the team? Cause ummm, I got room keys! ha...

Dallas Black
www.thirtyhood.com

Andre said...

hb
I wanna be high..I think I've honestly felt that feeling with one girl but she didn't wanna say it/ didn't want me to not say it back I guess, but it was on the tip of her toungue and if the circumstances were different I would've said it and she would be my one.

are you one of those guys that found a girl that was everything you've been looking for but she didn't like you back?

nah, any chick I really dug like that it was always reciprocated and when it wasn;t it was my mind buikding that person up to be more than they were or the relationship up more than what it was.


@DBlack
man that was a LDN thing bro...I'm still kinda mad at myself for not getting up with a girl while I was there.

Bow Chica Wah Wah said...

My foolish heart was on heavy rotation a few weeks ago with the FIRE FIGHTER!

Her whole CD was =/

anywho LOve is love...

Taryn "Skinny Genes" B. said...

I want one girl to hold me down but at the same time variety is nice too...
^^^

It's call having your cake and eating it too. That shit dont fly with a lot of girls unless theyre content with being a side chick.

BEACH 11:29 said...

if more guys could be as honest as that the world wouldn't be in the shit it is today
from a cynic of love
;d

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