"If you spent as much time and focus in school as you did these girls and other shit you'd be done by now!"
-Nadia
But to tell the truth that's like the majority of my life... I kind of feel weirded out when on the rare occasions I'm on facebook because I see these chicks in their kente grad robes smiling like they're happy to be alive and holding up their bachelor of interior decorating/ psychology/ sociology/marketing/public relations/human resources degrees, and I feel like since I just recently got my associates , I'm behind the curve and shit. But fuck it, I mean I'm not in any race with anybody, we just chose different paths.
I got a letter that made me do some soul searching... well not really soul searching but just questions I'd have to ask myself, and it like left me flustered after I read it. It really was about being reminded of watching what you do, cause this world ain't that big.
''.....don't run through tons of girls
trying to do everything you can
before you turn 25.''
Sometimes people can really shoot arrows and hit the mark. I showed my homegirl and she was all about it for real. But even when I was very close to actually getting a 'party everyday, live forever' tattoo, 'this was feb' 2008 in jacksonville and I was in the shop ready to go'
I know you can't be trying snatch em if you're over a certain age, because dudes like that end of as dudes in the club looking like chaperons and shit in their suede kangol hats and matching velvets suits on, with white k swiss' on. That can't be me. and contrary to what my tattoo would've said, you can't party forever. But at the same time, I'm in no hurry to get married and waiting in the mean time would suck. I've said before marriage is like a ball and chain and I think that at my age there's no way I could find "that one television program to watch all my life"
Is that selfish?
This douchebag I knew from when I was just outta high school, rolls up to kick it and smoke in his scrubs and brags how he's a orderly...
Me: So you're a orderly?
Yeah
Me: Like the fat boys in that movie?
and him and his fiance are doing this, and that and he can't wait to be married and have his kid, how it's the best thing that ever happened to him, yada yada yada I told him cool, but I like to think that he was full of shit. Among that he was just talking to hear himself speak, but he asked me where did I see myself at age 40 and I was like...
'Living in Barbados or maybe Cost Rica... retired, working on my novel that I've been working on for years, running errands around the island in a german car, eating good and just tending to my garden where I'm growing herbs and potent marijuana and...
Alexis: You're not gonna be married or have any kids?!?!
Me: *kanye shrug*
