lost...

I've been off for awhile on some finding myself type shit you know but after all this time I haven't found a damn thing.... Its just been like someone put a curse on me or something all sorts of bad shits been happenin to me... My window fucked up, I got rear ended, towed, and a ticket all in one day... Now I know a lot more people have more serious problems than that but I'm not them and there not me soooo.. But I know what it is in life I need and I want it more than almost anything and when I find that thing it will either add the balance I'm seeking or really fuck my world up.....

Homegirl drama

I'm really thinking about moving in with a female friend of mine... Granted she's did some bad shit in her life and had some bad shit done to her she's like one of the most sweetest chicks I know and when she's not fucked up and nicer girl... Me myself, I've got no prob moving in with her but what really makes me think twice about that shit is the fact that I am a real wishy washy person when it comes to decisions like that... Granted I want a spot to entertain and all but I also want money in my pocket to buy shit when I want it.... This choice really isn't a hard one to make but whether I move in with this girl or not what will it really change?

Lush

My new drink of choice is now the "Blood Clot"... Everyone knows or should know that my famed drink was the "Caribou Lou" but after having the sweet nectar of a Southern Comfort and a 7-Up combined with the great taste of Grenadine which I don't even know if its a liquor or not....

What's up with the dudes in va? I've been in stone mountain, ga for my high school years and there really couldn't of been a better place for a decent looking young black man... I mean the south especially atl was blowing up at the time and I'm not even gonna make it seem like Stone Mountain is all jolly ranchers and starbursts cause there is nothing sweet about it at all... But I mean the lifestyle I lived therem, I enjoyed so much.. The clubs and house parties, even at lame ones it would be everybody with their click and that one girl will start popping to a dancing song and it will be on you feel me? But here that one girl would get danced with sure but no other girls wanna follow suit, and when you do find a girl that will move something she just wants to be seen... I used to do that "hey girl, You in the red pants" type shit but that shit is real played out, Now I'm not gonna sit here and give up my lady getting secrets but it's 40% how you look and 30% what you say and the rest is up to her....

Lock down

Restriction is a beast kinda.... Waking up at 6am then mustering at 1130, 430, 6pm and again at 930 in a dress uniform that shit sucks fool..... But so far my time has kinda been going by fast, I get off on the 2nd of july and I'm really too lazy to count the days buts its probably like 22 or something.. Anyway pretty soon I'm gonna go to sleep and wake up and do all this shit all over again.... But hopefully when I get off I'll have the sexy body I know I should have...

Music and me

I really feel like I've reached a plateau of sorts when it comes to my music production.... I mean of course my beats go hard and of course they really help out mediocre flows but when it comes to just redefining the nihilistic-crunk rap genre I really don't think I'm the man to do it.. Of course I don't have the bitches or the money.. Yet. But of course I don't really do it for that even though its just perks of the job, I make beats because I feel great after listening to a beat I made and I still love when people ask me do I go to a studio and I tell them nah I do it all over my laptop from vocals to samples to all that..... Let me stop tooting my horn here but so far I've got a bout 6 hot joints that I can see getting played at house parties and fucking some dudes shit up. You know when you got some disgruntled niggas listening to some crunk ass shit you got a problem on your hands... Anyway thats just how I feel about my music...

What I want!

What I want I want a girl like Hilary Clinton, she was a down ass woman.. I mean how many woman would stand by their man when he was allegedly getting served up every whichaway. Yeah you got the money to think about but this broad wrote a book and even talked about that shit, everytime you used to see Bill on the news lying his ass off, she would be right there holding his hand and all that... What I really wanna know is where the hell are all my Hilary Clintons in Va? I think they're probably the girls who get cussed out for dissin the shit out of dude's that try to get at them. But my goal is to try and stop messing with the certain types of girls and find a Hilary...